Green is great

My friend MC tagged me to list 3 ways that I live green. Well, sort of meme is right up my alley (who am I kidding, any meme is right up my alley)…so here goes-

1) Transportation- We have really been working on carpooling here in the Kelly household. We are trying to work out the kinks of having just one car with plans of selling the van and the civic next spring for something more reliable. We live so close to our jobs and are jobs are so close to each other, there really is no reason for us to have 2 cars, and honestly, so far it has been a really easy transition. Plus I hate to drive so it is good for the Earth and good for Mama.

2) Household- We recycle everything. We use energy efficient light bulbs and own energy efficient appliances. We are going to plant our first garden this spring and I am hoping to grow enough vegetables to stock up our kitchen all summer, plus some to can for the winter, and some for our friends and family {gardening tips would be greatly appreciated}. We compost our scraps and only mow our lawn when it is absolutely necessary (wait, that might have more to do with being lazy than living green) ;)

3) What we eat- Did you know that not eating meat, especially beef, is the best thing you can do for the planet? Why? Raising cattle for slaughter is a tremendous waste of water, a major contributor of pollution in our streams and rivers, plus it destroys rain forests and produces massive amounts of carbon dioxide and methane and many other things. This link is a fascinating explanation of why skipping that hamburger is so good for our planet. By not eating beef you will----
~avoid polluting our streams and rivers better than any other single recycling effort you do,
~avoid the destruction of topsoil,
~avoid the destruction of tropical forest,
~avoid the production of carbon dioxide. (Your average car produces 3 kg/day of CO2. To clear rainforest to produce beef for one hamburger produces 75 kg of CO2. Eating one pound of hamburger does the same damage as driving your car for more than three weeks);
~reduce the amount of methane gas produced;
~reduce the destruction of wildlife habitat, and
help to save endangered species.

What are you doing to live green?

Photoshoppin' it

This photo was my first attempt at photoshop. I cropped it, changed it to black and white and then adjusted the contrast and the brightness. It is a little grainy because it is actually a scanned photograph originally taken with my 35 mm camera but I love it as a black and white. I am so excited about using photoshop, there are so many great things you can do in that program. Thanks babe, for showing me how to do it!

Dinner for 3

Roasted Fall Vegetable Soup ala Martha Stewart---my photos could never compare to her photos. A salad and some garlic toast on the side. Filling and tasty, for sure. Recipe here.

Things that make me happy Thursday

*I had to put Henry in a sweatshirt and a jacket this morning. The breeze was cool and we could see our breath. Henry would take a breath and say “teem Mama. Hot.” He thought it was steam, like his hot veggies at dinner. *The leaves are just starting to change. On my way to work I spotted little specks of yellow in the green canopy over the streets in our neighborhood. *We have a maple tree in our front yard. I peak outside every morning, anticipating its fall show---what color will it be? *The Halloween decorations are up at Gigi and Grandpa’s house. “Keleton keleton” Henry yelled when we pulled into their drive this morning. Then he grabbed my hand as we walked into the house and pulled me from room to room-“Bats. Bumpkin. Bumpkin. Ghost. Bumpkin lights….” *Many of the decorations at my Mom’s house I made with my sisters when we were kids. Construction paper pumpkins and spiders made from pipe cleaners. I can’t wait to fill my house with homemade decorations made by my children. Until then I will just have to decorate myself and I am thinking that candy wreath and paper lantern pumpkins (above) are a great start*Rolling Prairie is still going strong; we still get our bags of locally grown produce once a week. I am hoping for butternut squash, raspberries and green beans this week. I have roasted squash with a raspberry dressing, cornbread stuffing, green beans and mashed potatoes and gravy on the menu for next week. *Plans are underway for Halloween care packages for my sisters. Chocolate truffles rolled in orange sprinkles are packaged and ready to mail*I found a porch swing made of sustainably harvested wood from South America and the best part is that it is on sale. We are going to order it this weekend. I have always wanted a house with a porch swing. *Halloween cupcake ideas are flowing in. My favorites are above....especially the monster one. I think we may have to do a trial run this weekend ;) *I am listening to the new Radiohead CD *We are going to the pumpkin patch with my parents and Aunt Kelly next weekend. Pumpkin carving will follow. I am thinking of doing a dot pumpkin, like the one in the center of my mosaic. * I put some mums on our front porch. *Wade taught me how to use photoshop *41 days until my sisters arrive. *Grandpa is off work today so Henry gets to spend the whole day with both of his Grandparents {and my Mom gets a break}. *I am going to leave for my lunch break to buy some pumpkin spice candles from our favorite candle shop. The house will smell like October tonight :) Happy Thursday to you.

Autumn always reminds me of J&M

A few days back I went on and on about all the fun events coming up in the next few months. Well, I think I might have another one to add. Last night we got to talk to our good friends (and Henry's god parents) Jason and Mandy and we starting making plans for a visit this winter. I can't tell you how ecstatic I am at the prospect of sitting in our living room laughing and playing music with them until the wee hours of the morning.

The last time Henry saw them he could barely walk but every time Jason picked up his guitar Henry would toddle over, stand next to Jason and dance and dance and dance....

Can't wait to see you guys.

Side salad

The other day I was visiting with a coworker and mentioned that I forgot to bring my lunch. She quickly and very kindly offered up her crackers, cheese and salami. I said no thanks but she pushed a little saying that she had a ton of it and didn't want it so I told her that I don't really eat that stuff too often anymore. She asked "What part of it do you not eat? The salami?" I said yeah the salami and the cheese and probably not the crackers either. "Are you some kind of vegan or something?" she asked. I told her that I am sort of a vegan. I just don't eat much dairy, meat or eggs. "So what, you just eat salads all the time then?" she asked.

Of course this is a common misconception about vegans and it is totally untrue. Not eating meat, dairy and eggs opens up a whole world of good stuff that you might miss just eating the staples of an American diet. So I thought that I would try to go all week taking photographs and talking about what I ate for dinner. Of course, it is Tuesday so I have already missed Monday but I actually wrote a post a while back about what we ate on Monday, so I guess I am still on track.

Tonight we had Hot Tamale Burgers, Spanish rice, broccoli and a salad. And tonight confirmed for me what I already suspected, I love cookbooks but I hate following recipes. I'm no good at it. The recipe uses brown rice as the glue for the patty. I had already planned on making Spanish rice and had left over quinoa from yesterday so I thought I would just substitute one for the other....eh, didn't work...tasted great but fell apart and in the end we had something more like a stir fry then a patty. I made a chipotle garlic alioi to go on top the burgers, it is one of Wade's favorite sauces (he loves sauces) so we drizzled that on top of the quinoa and it was super spicy and tasty. Henry had one bite and said "No more for Henry. Too picey!" But Wade thought is was the best vegan dinner he has ever had. I think I am going to try it again but make it into a bake instead of a burger. The recipe is too long for me to type out but if you are intrested let me know and I will make a photocopy and send it to you. Good stuff I tell you...way more than just salad :)

Family::Disconnect::Connect

A few years ago Wade’s sister had a benefit concert for her trip to Europe. She asked Wade to perform a few songs and Wade excitedly got to work on two group songs and two solos. The following weekend we packed up the car and drove to Western Kansas for the performance. Wade practiced the songs with his siblings on Friday and Saturday while I visited with the extended family that was in town for the benefit show, spent time with his best friend from high school, finished reading 2 books, knitted a scarf and watched the gang practice. On Sunday we got to the theater early to set up. People started to arrive about an hour before the show. Wade’s Dad, his Dad’s wife, cousins, aunts, grandmother…all trickled in about an hour before the show. I went to greet everyone at the door as they arrived and then headed to the front of the theatre where his Dad and his Dad’s wife were sitting. I moved toward the middle of the row so that there would be plenty of room for the rest of the family. No one sat by me. I sat in the middle of the 4th row alone. Family filled in the rows in front and behind me, to my left and to my right but there was a radius of at least 3 empty seats all around me. In typical small town form everyone was whispering about the new girl. I could feel all the eyes beating down on me. I only looked behind me once and decided that I wouldn’t do it again. After the show I ran up to Wade and did not let go of his hand for 2 hours.

This story pretty much describes my entire experience with his family. Sometimes I wonder what they don’t like about me. I think I am a pretty decent person. I smile, I listen, I ask questions, I share my experience, I’m sincere, I’m open, I’m non-judgmental and I honestly want to be a part of their lives and to get to know them. I am by no means perfect but I think I am pretty easy to get along with. And I love their son/brother/nephew/cousin/friend with my whole heart and spend every day trying to make our life together as true to us, and make him as happy, as I can. That should count for something.

Wade says it is an issue of expectations. Wade says he doesn’t have any expectations for his family. He says that he learned that it was easier on him and everyone else for him to just take them at face value and in turn he doesn’t pay attention to their expectations of him. That is such an interesting notion to me…no expectations. My expectations have gotten me in trouble on numerous occasions. I have been let down by people because of my expectations more times than I could count. But to not have any expectations, to just turn them off…can people actually do that?

Wade says he doesn’t care what anyone thinks of me or him or our relationship. And I believe him. But I remember what it was like for him when I told him that I sat alone the night of the benefit show. I know that he cared that night.

On Friday I watched Meet Joe Black. For some reason it sat with me all afternoon; the connection between the family that we are born into and the family that we create as adults. How unique and beautiful and dynamic and difficult and wonderful they both are. I am part of my parents; I have my Dad’s nose and my Mom’s hands. They shaped who I was and who I am today. Now I am married to this person who is helping to shape who I will be and together we have made this amazing person who sings and laughs and yells and runs and has my eyes and Wade’s nose. I cried easily for the rest of the afternoon. Henry woke from his nap and started dancing in the living room. He grabbed my hand and said “Dance Mama” and so we danced and ran in circles and I cried. Our connection to each other is so beautiful and so delicate and so important. In fact, I am willing to say that in the end, it is all that really matters.

Holey Shomoley!

I got an 82%

I am certain that I don't deserve it...but I'll take it :)

Things that make me happy Thursday

Today has been a difficult day for me to come up with my things that make me happy Thursday post. It has been a very very long day and the end is not in sight as I have to come back into work this evening after Henry goes to bed. But, I suppose these kind of days are precisely what things that make me happy Thursdays are for.
So what is getting me through the day?

Iced coffee. Fiest, MF Doom, Dead Prez, Nina Simone and Otis Redding. Short breaks for blogging. The most recent Radio Lab podcast. Knowing that Henry is with Papa at the toy store right now having a great time (apparently playing with puppets with Wade, his favorite puppet?- Dr. Moody). Post-test relief, even if it means a bad grade.

Sorry...that's all I got. It's like trying to squeeze water out of a pebble at this point. Hopefully I'll really rock it out next Thursday. Hope you had a good one.

Question 1

This morning I-
A) Likely flunked my first test since my freshman year at KU
B) Guessed on 19 of 50 questions on my exam (that leaves 62% not guesses)
C) Discovered that they make scan-trons with answer options up to N
D) Stopped on my way down the hill to put my stupid exam in my bag, thereby missing the parking guy by 3 minutes and getting another frickin $10 ticket
E) Got my period and bleed through my jeans while taking my exam and then had to bring it to the front of the classroom and walk down the hill with a red stain on my ass
F) Saw the annoying guy in class that always tries to prove the teacher wrong turn in his exam after only 15 minutes and then attempt to have the professor “pound it” on his way out.
G) On my return to work found a hand written note on my chair that pretty much said I had to meet my deadlines despite the fact that the person providing the information to me got it to me 3 days late.
H) Slept in and sat out on the veranda listening to NPR and doing a sudoku
I) Realized how out of place I am when I stood over a large tin trashcan with a lighter and copy of my exam in hand and looked back to find all of my classmates in a herd excitedly comparing answers.
J) All except E. Ever heard of TMI, sheesh!
K) All except H which is something I imagined while staring at my exam.
L) All except F, even biology nerds are not that ridiculous
M) All of the above
N) None of the above

The answer is K, by the way

Last year at the patch

Looking forward to...

If I ever complain about anything that has to do with my parents again in the future please send me an over the Internet smack. Two reasons-1) Henry and I have stopped at my parents house unexpectedly and uninvited for 4 days in a row. Today, my Mom had to have a procedure done that made it so she couldn't watch Henry for us. So what did I do? I popped by to check on her at around 5 and stayed for dinner and an evening walk. My parents are incredibly generous and never say a word about spending every day with a wild 2 year old and his exhausted mother, although I can only imagine how tiresome that must get for them.
2) My parents just bought me this house- Just kidding. My semi-retired Dad has been working so that our whole family (all 10 of us) can spend a week next summer in a beach house on the East coast and today they decided on this place.
It is on a private beach and has amazing views of the Atlantic from every bedroom.

On our way to the beach we are going to stop in St. Louis for the night (we figure 4 hour stretches with Henry stuck in the car is about the best we are going to get). In St. Louis I think we'll visit my Aunt P and go here (take the photo tour and you will get a sense of how awesome this place is). Then we will drive to Louisville to visit Nana. Nana is Henry's Great Grandmother. She is wonderful. Wade grew up in Louisville so it is always fun to swing by his old haunts. Nana's mother, Eva, lives in Indiana. That's Henry's Great Great Grandmother. If I can find a way to bring Alex to Louisville that same weekend then we can get a 5 generation photograph and I can check off #28. We'll probably stop one more time between Louisville and the beach house, in Tennessee or North Carolina. I'll have to do some research on fun things to do in that area.

I am hoping I will get to do #5, #23 and #30 while we are there. Oh and I will definitely get to do #2. And, on the long car ride I might do a little of #27.

I have to say that this trip has me more excited than I have been in quite a while. Spending a week with my family on the ocean sounds like a dream come true. I am literally counting down the days {I'm not kidding guys, it's on my calendar at work}.

Other future events that I am counting down for-Our annual visit to the pumpkin patch (I'll post pictures from last year and this year). Our 5th wedding anniversary. Henry in a Halloween costume. Thanksgiving. Henry's 2nd birthday. The end of the semester. Christmas...This year is going to go out with a bang.

Tell me, what are you counting down the days until?

Enry sanwech?

I ate this for lunch
with this kid. What could be better?

Kaleidoscope

Play is the most important element in discovering who you are.

"Remember those childhood days spent running in your bare feet, playing make-believe, and, most of all, living life with fearless enthusiasm? That spirit is an important element in discovering who you are and what you love to do---and it's inside you right now, waiting to be rediscovered. Here's the best part, you had it all along."

Living Out Loud, Keri Smith

I bought this book a few months ago and have really only gotten past the first few pages. It is full of ideas to spark your creative energy. I bought it in the hopes that it might help me to find a space in my life that felt comfortable enough for me to let out some of my otherwise stifled creative energy.

I would say that I have always considered myself a creative person. As a child making animals out of play dough and choreographing a dance routine to "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go" were daily activities. The problem for me came around my sophomore year in high school. I had an art teacher that was very critical of my version of art. I knew it was not the right class for me from the start, we spent the first two weeks drawing cubes and pipes. Then we did a project called kaleidoscope. We had to draw a picture in a triangle and repeat that same picture in 7 other triangles with each pair mirroring each other. This teacher was looking for precision in each replication, that sort of thing was not my strong suite. I can't even remember the rest of the projects from that semester but I remember that I found any excuse not to go, got in trouble for trying chewing tobacco (almost made me throw up, by the way), got sent to the library a dozen times and maybe even to the Principal's office once, and, in the end I got a D. My confidence in my ability to create art that was worth anything higher than a C- was shot, and so was my parents. It was the last art class I ever took. From that point on I figured I should have listened to my parents in the first place and (with a little push) I signed up for more science and math classes. Chemistry-sucked. Physics-like a foreign language. Trigonometry-survived on guessing and a very old and slightly senile teacher. Latin-please...Biology-well, that was something I was okay at. I had a good teacher. I thought it was interesting. I got good grades. I went to college. I wanted to major in textile design. My parents said no and while I blamed them for my bad grades for years, in a way I think I was relieved that they said no. I really didn't think I would be any good at it anyway. I changed my major to biology.

Now here I am. I'm 30. Thirty. Three zero. I am 15 years from my nasty art teacher. I am an adult. Adults are supposed to KNOW. This is what I know-
10 years is too long for an undergraduate degree.
Maybe it is not the right fit for me.
But I have invested so much time and money.
Probably isn't the right fit for me.
But it means everything to my Dad.
It's not the right fit for me.
But I'm stubborn. I'm not a quitter. I can do it.

This is what I don't know-
Everything

Shit. I hate this. Reading my bio book is like reading a foreign language. All I want to do is play with my boy, bake some pumpkin cookies, dream of being with my family for Thanksgiving, paint my toenails, go to bed early and make animals out of play dough and choreograph a dance routine to "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go"

When I was a kid we went to this place in KC called Kaleidoscope. There was a maze full of activities like a wall of things to feel, a table of pins that you could stick your hands under and the pins would push up and make an impression of your hand, places to make weird sounds, and at the very end was a room with 6 or 8 stations, each with their own art project. I remember drawing a picture on a board and then sending it through this machine to make a puzzle. I remember making a hat with springing ears popping off of it. I remember cardboard sunglasses with pink lenses that we could draw all over. It was great. After your twelfth birthday you could no longer go through the maze and do the craft stations. After 12 you got to be a supervisor at the station and you just watched what the kids were doing to make sure that they stuck the puzzle in the machine correctly or that they didn't run out of glitter for their sunglasses. I think that is the problem. There shouldn't be an age limit on creativity. There isn't a point where math and science are a better use of time. There is just a kind of person that math and science are their preferred use of time. And those of us that would prefer to be in the Kaleidoscope should get to be in it without shame or conflict or concern about how accurate our cube drawings are.

Keep in mind

This month is the 50th Anniversary the historic 1957 desegregation of Little Rock Central High School. There is an amazing article about this famous photo in Vanity Fair this month. The story centers around the lives of two women: 15-year-old Elizabeth Eckford on her first day of school, and her most recognizable tormentor, Hazel Bryan (standing behind her in the photo). The story of how these two women struggled to reconcile and move on from the event is a remarkable journey through the last half-century of race relations in America. Like millions of other people who have seen that photograph, I can't stop thinking about it. The hate on that woman's face. The indescribable fear and pain that a 15 year old girl facing that kind of hate must have felt.
The community of people trying to help her...It breaks my heart.
And, in 50 years we haven't really come that far.

*photos from Vanity Fair

Day 2

Henry's room is coming along. Wade has been working really hard and has done a really great job....thanks honey. He laid the new floor today and finished most of the painting. Touch up painting, moldings and the carpet will be finished tomorrow. All that will be left after that is putting in the ceiling fan which we will probably wait until Thanksgiving to do that so that my sweet brother in law, Ted, can help us.



And, a big thanks to Papa's little helper. He still doesn't quite understand that this is going to be his room, he just keeps saying that Papa's bed is broken but he seems to really enjoy the adventure, so he fits right in around here....

My plate....

...is too full.

Check it

My sister posted this link to a survey to find the presidential candidate that best fits your beliefs/opinions on many of the major issues today. My match was Dennis Kucinich (I love him!), Barack Obama and Joseph Biden. John Edwards was #8 on my list which kind of surprised me, I thought he would be higher up there. I do admit that since we don't get to vote in the primaries I have not put much time into getting to know the candidates. I do know that Bush is a total and complete nightmare (if you thought I went off about Wal-Mart, just get me started on Bush....you haven't seen anything yet...) and I am just pumped that he is almost outta here.

This story starts in the middle

I am sleeping on the wood floor of my dining room. Well, technically not on the actual floor, we put our mattress on it, but still it's not my bedroom. This is the third time in the 10 years that I have been with Wade that I have ended up sleeping in the dining room. But that is a story for another time. How did I end up on the floor? Well, it started on Sunday when we had the bright idea to switch rooms with Henry. Let me just say that my husband cannot help himself. Furniture is constantly moving in my house, rooms are switched every few months. He loves change and he gets so excited about it that he can think of nothing else. So, the switch began. For those of you who have not been in our house let me just say that our house is very small. The rooms are a good size but there are only 6 of them and that counts the bathroom and garage. So when we moved all of our furniture and clothing out of our bedroom it pretty much filled our living room and dining room. We noticed a patch of something strange in the corner of the room and, after pulling back the carpet a bit, Wade discovered that the previous owners had shoved steel wool in a hole in the corner. Which seemed like a silly thing to do, but then Wade told me that it is to keep out mice. Well, we were not having our baby sleeping in a place that could have mice so we decided in investigate further. Wade pulled the carpet all the way back and we found some very very old floors. Our house was built in 1910. It was gutted and rebuilt in 1994. The actual footprint of the house is the same as the original farmhouse but the rest of the structure was supposed to have been renovated. This floor was supposed to be barely 10 years old, but instead it is closer to 100 years old. It is just the old wood with a very thin piece of 100 year old plywood underneath it. It sags in some places, springs under your feet in other places, crack and pops and well, quite honestly, I can't believe that we have lived here for 3 months and have not ended up crashing into the crawl space. The support beams are good, they do not give or bounce when we walk on them, so, Wade is going to put an additional layer of 1 in plywood over the floor, attach it to the support beams, fill in any gaps around the edges and corners and make it so that those old wood floors no longer have any weight on them. It isn't great timing but we planned on working on this room eventually so it just moved to #1 on the list.

So here is the room. It had a tree painted on the wall and clouds and butterflies floating throughout.

Sorry, this picture is a little fuzzy, my camera was dieing so I was shooting fast. Here you can see where they did a major repair on the floor already, something they did not disclose to us when we purchased the house (shame on them!) You can't really see much with this picture but I am not sure how to delete it so here it is.

Here you can see how bad the floor is and you can kind of see the huge one inch gap between the floor boards and the drywall. I painted the walls tonight. It is supposed to be a pale green but right now it looks more beige. We'll see how it looks in the morning.

Ehem....

If this doesn't change how you feel about processed meats then you are one tough cookie. Keep pushing next, to see the images zoomed in even more. Facinating and also stomach turning....

On my personal roller-coaster

So, I go off on a rant about Wal-Mart and then my Mom sends me this link. It is about Prof. Randy Pausch at Carnegie-Mellon University. He is dying of cancer, and he gives one last lecture, and it is incredible. You can even listen instead of watching if you have something else to do (I am creating invoices at work right now and listening). It will make you feel good....Worth your time...WORTH IT!

{The first 20 minutes or so are great then he goes off on a little tanget but then the end is really good again}

If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything

So, I try to keep most of my opinions to myself (yeah, that's right, there actually is a lot that I don't say...shocking, I know) but I also really appreciate people that give me a new perspective or tell me something that will help me live a better, more thoughtful life. So here goes-

Wal-Mart won. For those of you that don't live in Lawrence or that do live in Lawrence...just under a rock...Wal-Mart has been fighting with the city for years to build a super center over on the west side. The city fought a "good" fight but in the end corporate greed won out and the "compromise" that they reached was that Wal-Mart could upgrade to a super center at their current location and a regular Wal-Mart on the west side. It is outrageous to me that a company would blatantly dismiss the wishes of a city and force a city to spend millions dollars in taxes to fight the them in court but what is even more outrageous is that even after all of that people will still shop there.

I know that Americans love a bargain. I am just as poor and in debt as the next guy so I understand that....but please, have some principles. Wal-Mart is destroying our country. A small company run by a local person cannot compete with ultra cheap prices. They pay their employees crap. Their insurance is a joke. I don't remember the statistics but something like 70% of their employees are on some sort of federal assistance. They close down stores that threaten unionization. They unfairly promote males over females and 80% of what they sell is cheap, poorly made crap from China-a communist country that allows child labor, mistreats their employees, and puts lead paint into children's toys to make them shiny. To quote Bill Maher "Over the past few months Americans have learned an important lesson of supply and demand. If you demand products that don't cost anything, people will make them out of poison, mud and shit."

And if you are still certain that you cannot afford to shop anywhere else consider this money saving idea---buy less stuff! Then can afford to spend more money of the stuff you actually need. And it is better for the environment too.

Off my soapbox...for now. And for a good laugh watch this {some of his jokes are a little over the top, but I still love him}-

Things that make me happy Thursday

We got a taste of Fall last weekend. This is my favorite time of year. I had to wear my sweatshirt on our Sunday morning bike ride. Pumpkins are lining up outside of grocery stores, people are talking about football and Halloween costumes, and I spotted some leaves changing color on campus. Sweaters and carmel apples (or carmel apple cupcakes in our case), sneakers and candy corns and sunflowers and getting dark earlier and seeing your breath in the mornings and soup and cool breezes and pink cheeks and scarves and snuggling....

Sign me up

It's offical. People make me nuts. I need to be on my own island.

Sweet!

Exhausted by other people's inactivity

Life is about choices. Making a risky choice is better than not making one at all...

Monday mosaic....a little late

Oh how I love orange....

Searched on flickr for orange and found these.

Good Karma

I got to class late this morning and the only parking spaces left were one hour meters. My class is an hour and a half, but it was my only option so I put in my quarters, hoped that the parking attendants would come around early and hauled ass up the hill.

When I got out of my class I had 4 minutes left on my meter. Someone put 50 cents into my meter.

I'm still glowing :)

Take this test and report back

Okay, so I try not to be preachy, in fact I probably over compensate because I don't want to make people feel uncomfortable. But the fact of the matter is that I REALLY REALLY care about our planet. And, as a person that is a mere 4 classes away from being an official ecologist, I feel it is my obligation to occasionally ask people how they are doing. I mean, I notice every week that my house is the only one in the neighborhood with the curbside recycling tubs out front on Wednesday. It's $10 a month....seriously, you could loose that on the street and not really care. You could spend that in 1 and 1/2 visits to Starbucks (but if you are in Lawrence please go to LPT instead, they are way better and local). And Henry loves to help me sort it out. He already knows where to put the paper, plastic and cans...anyway, this little game is a fun and short and EASY way to take a look at what you are doing for (and to) the planet. I know, after this description you probably won't do it. What if I said it is a super fun game about bowling Santa's or a sudoku? Just check it out, it takes 2 minutes and could be a little enlightening. Plus you get to pick your persona and your neighborhood so it is practically Sim City :) And let me know how you do, I'm curious.

If everyone lived like me it would still take 2.1 Earths to support us all...

http://sustainability.publicradio.org/consumerconsequences/

Please

I just downloaded the pattern for these booties. I would like to make them as soon as possible. I just need some tiny feet to fill them up....Sisters? Friends? Random Blurkers? Someone please give me a reason to make these.

self-portrait #7

Sometimes a girl needs a new haircut.

My lunch break

Went to get the mail during my lunch break today and found this postcard. Wade's Mom is doing her part to fill up our postcard wall....

and we are getting close...
During my lunch break I got to eat with my favorite little bean. Who happens to LOVE beans.
He loves them so much that he has to sing about it.

Flickr Fun

Hey guys. I put a link to our flickr page on the side bar.

If only

If I could go back in time AND also be a smarter AND more diligent person I am certain that I would be a midwife or an OBGYN.

Things that make me happy Thursday

Baby toes. Podcasts. Open-minded people. The light in the eyes of a new mom. My coworker that makes me coffee every morning. Hearing the NFL jingle on a cool Sunday afternoon. That my husband spent hours filling my ipod with songs he thought I would like. Enormous avocados. The smell of Fall. Nice neighbors that bring us homemade bread and sunflower arrangements from their back yard. Pumpkins in front of grocery stores. Henry acting like a fish in the bathtub. Turning off the air conditioner and opening the windows. Curbside recycling. Trying to do my part. Events that take your life in new, exciting directions. Migrating butterflies. Believing in yourself. Planning for the holidays. Songs that make you dance at your desk. Reconnecting with old friends. The feeling you get after finishing an exam. New haircuts. Being brave.

My house

When I was a kid my Mom would have us eat our ice cream out of mugs. I think this might have been to shrink the portions a little, I mean there were six of us and we could kill a half gallon in one evening.

Tonight I had to eat our ice cream (left over from root beer floats this weekend) out of a mug, but it wasn't to shrink the portion size, it was because there are no clean bowls...that is how we roll in our house.

I like letters

During her last visit to Kansas my sister mentioned that she was thinking of starting a blog. I was very excited by this idea because 1) I would love to read updates on her life and what she is up to and what she is thinking about and 2) because writing in this blog has been very rewarding for me. I know that not many people read my blog, and that is just fine with me. The fun is in finding things to talk about, expressing my opinions and thoughts in a place that feels comfortable and safe, and learning about myself by looking at what it is that seems worthy of a post. As silly as it sounds, writing in this has helped me figure out just a little bit more about what is important to me and it has introduced me to a whole new world of people doing similar things...or not so similar things, that are interesting, fun or inspiring.

A discovery along the way was that I am not the only one that enjoys a good letter now and then...not the handwritten paper kind (although I enjoy those too) but the old, rusty, faded and worn kind that I can hang on my walls and use in my kitchen to spell the word EAT. I am a collector of interesting letters and one of these days I will post a picture of my letter wall...until then Ms. Supafly's recent find of flickr fun (as if I didn't spend enough time on flickr) will have to do. I am pretty sure that I have looked at every letter and that I have spelled out all of your names already. It's super fun.

The edge

My family is always teetering on disaster. We are always just one car breaking down, one sick day, one day without a babysitter, away from breaking down. My Mom is sick. She calls me yesterday to tell me that she is throwing up and her throat hurts and she has Henry gated in the living room while she lays on the couch trying not to breath on him. She sounds terrible and must feel awful because it takes a lot to get that woman on the sofa for a whole 24 hours. For us it is terrible timing. Wade has deadlines, I am right at the start of the month so my billings have to be completed by Friday. And I have no vacation time left, so I really can't leave work. Wade leaves to pick Henry up and it spirals downhill from there. His van overheats. I double pay on student loans pretty much emptying our bank account. I have an exam in 4 days and have not looked at a book or read a note in weeks. Our house is a disaster zone. Henry is busy busy busy, no time for quiet play while Mom and Dad clean the dishes or throw in a load of laundry. It's chaos. I really don't know how people do this.

Time travel

Does it happen to you? Something triggers it, a sound or a smell or the weather or someone you run into...and your brain picks you up and drops you back in a moment. It isn't just a memory, it is a journey back, with all the feelings from that time in your life. I like to call it feeling a memory. For me, it is one of the best things in life. I've tried to induce that feeling before. Just last year I found an old shampoo bottle from high school in one of my million bathroom goodies bins and got all excited. I opened the bottle in sweet anticipation of what was to come. I wondered what part of my high school experience I would travel to. Would I feel those awful insecurities again? Or maybe that incredible freedom you won't recognize or appreciate until you are a 30 year old women with a husband, a child and a mortgage. It didn't work. I recognized the smell but stayed right in my seat.

Last night the breeze caught me just right and took me to our old house on New Hampshire. It was a very old house with windows everywhere and screen doors on both the West and East side. When the breeze would blow just right we could lay in bed and feel like we were outside. I was back in our bed on a cold sunny morning. The breeze was perfect, it blew the wind chimes and made the leaves dance in the trees. I could hear the leaves blowing, I could smell the breeze, I could feel the cold blankets under my legs. I felt the freedom of being young and having no obligations on a Sunday morning. Just for a second...

Wade changed the shower curtain liner this morning. The bathroom smells like new plastic. One deep breath and I am back in prenatal classes at the hospital. We are sitting in class with 6 other ladies, all with their hands on their bellies and their hearts on the sleeves. Feeling nervous, excited, joyful, uncertain, courageous, and new depth of love and commitment. Wade is next to me. He is there because he knows what it means to me and looks at me with loving appreciation, pride and concern. He obligingly feels my belly with every kick and hops up whenever I shift uncomfortably or make sound. Then we are leaving class. We are in the hospital parking lot. It is late fall so the sun has set. The air is cold, it smells like winter. It is quiet, most people are at home snuggled in. The sky is clear and the even the stars look a little cold; like tiny ice crystals in a dark sky. We carry our pillows and blankets and I think about how in a few weeks we will be walking into this building with our blankets and pillows for a whole different reason and we will be transformed from two to three. And then the feeling is gone and I spend the whole night trying to figure out how to go back. I sit on the toilet with my eyes closed and the shower curtain on my nose. Nothing. It is like the giddy feeling you get when you are riding in a car and go over a hill but don't realize that you are going over the hill and your stomach jumps and your throat tightens up. No matter how many hills you go over, you won't get that feeling back until you stop paying attention.

F.K. future project

I am really excited. I found one of my favorite images (the one on the left) of Frida Kahlo as a pendent on etsy. It came in a set of three, so I am going to make a necklace for myself and maybe one for my older sister who also likes Frida, although maybe not quite as much as I do, but I think she would still like it. I also found this onsie that was so cute I couldn't resist it. I'll save it for a future niece or maybe another bean :)